I find it hard to not let others’ actions affect me but it does and I do not like it one bit. I mean, maybe if people took the time to take into consideration the right and wrongs of their actions, then feelings wouldn’t hurt, but sadly that is not how it goes.

I can’t think of how many girls you’ve taken in that fancy car of yours, drove around, paid food for, held hands with, and tried and get a kiss from; I can’t believe I was one of them. What a fool I am.

Tonight was too much like the past. For a second I wish it would’ve lasted, but I realized it’s not worth it and I don’t know even know you.

For a stranger to have the ability to turn your entire day around simply by smiling and showing kindness towards you, how awesome is that?

I feel like I’m blocked of all ability to compose any visual concept that satisfies me and it’s pretty fucking frustrating. I’m so dull and empty of all things that made me, me. I can’t focus on what I want to do because what I want do isn’t what I have to do. My right brain is dying, oh good god. 

I found it a necessity to blog because it’s the best way to express my opinion on a certain issue or endlessly ramble about my problems without having to respond to anyone’s worthless judgement. Why did I stop blogging again?

My need to vent on my blog is slowly dwindling to a point where I don’t think I will be interested, which seems to be a good thing since I use to only create posts when I was upset. I’ve been busy with work and also got back from State Conference at Reno for SkillsUSA. A little bummed out that we didn’t place, but I didn’t expect it since it was our first year. Still doing the same in school, yenno shitty grades and all. I went from a tried hard to not trying at all. Meh.

I find one of the world’s greatest irony is using violence as a way in attempting to achieve peace. It’s confusing and illogic, and it doesn’t take much thought to realize that solution doesn’t make any solve anything at all. If you fight fire with fire, well dammit, we’re all just going to get burned.

The animosity and disconnected communication between my parents affects me so fucking much, I can’t even imagine how they’re feeling right now.